Today it’s Father’s Day (in the UK), given I’m not at home, it saddens me to write that neither is my dad. Therefore, I’m going to keep this post short and sweet. First off, I want to send all my love too those ‘celebrating’ today, without their main man around. Whether you or he is over seas, at work, not in the picture or, in my case passed away.
If you don’t know me personally, then you won’t know that I lost my dad almost 10 years ago this July. Therefore, days like today are harder than most. Although I am currently traveling, that doesn’t mean I’m not aware of today or he’s less in my thoughts. Truth be told, he’s on my mind almost everyday. It’s a natural instinct, and a force of habit. Anyway, I don’t want to dwell too much today, I just want to write a letter. Something I’ve always found relieves my stress or busy Brain.
Dear Dad… (John, Toky, Jon Boy, Plums and lastly my hero)
I write this letter to you today, to just say hi and tell you I miss you. Honestly, I feel we would be strangers these days, and if I saw you standing before me right here, right now. I don’t really know what I would say to you. I guess that’s what happens after time. You left, and since then I’ve grown up. So much has changed in the last 10 years (other than I’ve aged – pretty well – haha). Some of which, I don’t think you would approve. First things first, my hair is shorter, I’m taller, and I speak my mind (a lot). My voice is probably different to what you remember. I’ve had a “few” tattoos, following on from my first one. Which was in honour of you, I’ll have you know.
I’ve grown up, learnt so much and seen even more – I have mum to thank for that! I wish you could see me, and what I’ve achieved. I wish you were still around now, more for mums sake. Now I’ve spread my wings, and left the nest. I know mum misses me, but she missed you more. I also hate that you left us too soon, and how much you’ve already missed out on, and what’s still to come. I’m destined for great things, as you always told me I was. You are my inspiration, my hero and forever will be. You live in me, every single day. You’re in my heart, mind and soul in all I do. I want you to know that.
That’s about it for today, and what I can finished writing, before I tear up and ball my eyes out. I’m sending love from me, mum and all the family and friends who loved you dearly. I know for a fact, they’ll have you in their thoughts today.
All my love, hugs and kisses!
Your one and only girl,